I just browsed the picture folders in my hard disk randomly.
Pictures from 2008 till 2012.
A lot of memories still vividly and fresh in my mind.
Reminiscing everything I have done, I feel that I have young once lol not that I am old now but I feel not as young as I used to be.
I got all my 1st time in my high school days and it was such a good experiences.
I got my best friends; I get a bunch of awesome classmates; I learned about kpop; I quarrel with my best friend; I skipped tuition class; I hanged out in shopping mall after class; I attended campfires from different school; I joined girl guides marching team; I took part in scout's campfire; I joined interact club and be active in most of their activities; I got my first love; I got my best birthday; I became a prefect canteen; I befriended with my school teacher; I went to a public library like 1 week twice just to study for STPM and a lot more!
Not to forget my working experiences, is good to learn things that I can't and won't obtain it in the classroom.
The unity, patience, determination, hardworking and so forth are the key element to survive in working world. I am glad to know a bunch of colleagues which they treated me just like their younger sister.
All in a sudden I realized that I gained yet I missed a lot of things in my life.
After living for almost 21 years in this world, everything become more complicated.
I am not naive anymore, after all those experiences, even if I don't wish to grow up, the surrounding around force me to grow up.
I fell and stand up by myself.
I admit I done pretty well for the pass few years but things started to go wrong and collapsed recently.
I have a very hardship especially on my studies and fitting in this new surrounding.
Seriously, I think I still live in a culture shock mood.
I don't know what went wrong, is just wrong, wrong, wrong.
Of course I try to live good and better to conquer the moody emotion. I still have a bunch of lovely course mates and friends here. Hanging out with them really cheer up my day.
Yet, sometimes I have to hide my real feelings and makes everything look fine. It is the way to show to the world, "I am fine, don't worry about me (:"
There are times I feel fade up in everything and just let it be. Not like I can control so I just let it goes its way.
Maybe this way of thinking make me grow tougher and able to go through these days.
I feel much better to think like that rather than making myself getting miserable.
But I still miss my life before entering university.
I can't turn back my time );