I know I shouldn't be acting so. I should respect her and whatever decision she make is better off than what I think. But I can't help that the promise she made to me is a valid one instead replace with others. The matter of fact it was just a small petite promise for you but I didn't see it that way. It was not a direct promise but once you said it I will take it very serious. You never said the thing was to replace the "promise" made earlier so you cannot just said I was throwing tantrum. But the most hurtful one you said "just like she said". You always favor her than me. I always know it. But the way you act when the two of us besides you is so obvious. Obviously I am just a replacement when she is not with you. You like her more and I have no intention to change your preference but please be fair when both of us are here. One of the reason I dislike her(I still got plenty reasons) is the way you being bias.

You never study me. You never try to know me. You never know how much hard time I have when I studied overstate. You thought I am all happy and adapt the life here well but it is the opposite. The first year was torturing but I didn't tell you to avoid your worrisome. You never know how miserable when there is time I hope you are just beside me. I buy things that I want using my own money and only sometimes I want a thing and I requested from you(normally not big issue things like groceries), you said I ALWAYS want the one but you see, mostly I can settle myself without your help. What is your definition of  ALWAYS want the thing I want. If you want to count like that please LIST it down to make me clear HOW I ALWAYS THROW TANTRUM when I didn't get what I want. I don't want to argue cos there is third party there, if I want to I can just SHOUT how I didn't ask you or request you to do if I CAN HANDLE MY OWN.

#heartbroken #ialwaysknowit